Cooking With Love

Some love to cook, some are compelled to cook, some are lazy to cook.  So tell me, which category do you fall in?  When I was little, I was asked to help my mom to do cooking for the very lame reason - I'm the eldest and only daughter in the family.  Sometimes I feel life is unfair being born the only girl. Kitchen work has become a responsibility then and a bigger one now. However, I've grown to love cooking in the late years. I love to cook for my loved ones, especially my little brother who enjoys eating home made meals. I had never thought that one day I will be frequently and constantly until today but because the people I cook for enjoy the food, I became even more passionate in cooking.  These days I cook with love and sincerity.  I seriously think the love and sincerity is important in cooking because those are the two most important ingredients to add in order to produce tasty meals.

So dear friends...cook with LOVE and SINCERITY, and you'll find satisfaction in your soul just by looking at your loved ones enjoying the food you cook.  :-)

Kuih Cara

Ini al-kisah bagaimana Kak Long mula membuat kuih cara berlauk dan terus membuatnya sehingga kini. Bulan Ramadhan tahun 2009, pada satu hujung minggu, adik akak, Aman dan isterinya berbuka puasa di rumah mak dan ayah  Teringat pula...rumah lama di Damansara dahulu.  Aman suka makan kuih cara berlauk, maka pada hari tersebut dia dan isterinya pergi ke bazar Ramadhan Kelana Jaya. Menjelang waktu berbuka puasa kami menghidang kuih muih yang dibeli bersama2 juadah berbuka puasa yang dimasak. Bila azan berkumandang kami pun mulalah la merasa semua kuih2 yang dibeli itu...rupa2nya kuih cara berlauk yang Aman dan Noreen beli tu dah basi!  Sakitnya la hati Kak Long bila memikirkannya.  Kalau nak menjual, jual la makanan yang dimasak dengan elok. Ini tidak...duit orang diambil, tapi makanan yang dijual sudah basi.  Apakah???

Esoknya, atas rasa tidak puas hati, Kak Long nekad nak cuba buat kuih cara berlauk sendiri. Adunan sudah dibuat, tapi acuannya pula tiada.  Takpe...be creative...guna muffin tin. Tu diaaa.... punya la besar kuih2 tu jadinya. Nak letak gambar dah takde pulak dalam simpanan... Kalau ada nanti Kak Long post di blog ni ye. Puas hati makan bersama ahli2 keluarga yang lain.  Since that day, Kak Long cuba dan cuba lagi membuat kuih cara berlauk ni sehingga perfect pada standard Kak Long.  Mak suka kuih cara manis, jadi ada juga la Kak Long buat. Sekarang ini dari masa ke semasa bila teringin makan kuih cara ni, Kak Long akan buat sendiri. No more buying them at the bazar Ramadhan.  Inilah hasil air tangan Kak Long membuat kuih2 cara berlauk dan manis.

Kuih Cara Berlauk Daging

Kuih Cara Manis

Hujan Rahmat

Salam pagi Jumaat untuk semua.  Kita sebagai manusia memanglah tidak sempurna.  Ada saja yang tak berpuas hati. Beberapa minggu lepas, musim hujan.  Semua mengeluh kerana setiap hari hujan lebat, aktiviti harian agak terganggu dek kerana hujan lebat.  Seminggu ini pula, cuaca amat panas...pun kita mengeluh kerana  panas, dahaga, migraine dan sebagainya.  Kak Long rasa  kita sepatutnya bersyukur tak kira hujan atau panas. Kedua-duanya rahmat dari Allah...manfaatkanlah rahmat yang Allah beri kepada kita. Sememangnya dua tiga hari ini terasa bahang matahari walau pun awan menebal namun tidak pula hujan turun membasahi bumi.  Mungkin awan sedang berkumpul untuk turun sebagai hujan di minggu yang lain.  Pagi ini, pagi Jumaat yang mulia ini, dengan kuasa Allah, turun juga hujan dengan selebat2nya.  Hujan rahmat...walau pun seketika cuma, dalam 10 minit tetapi memadai membasahi bumi yang sedang "dehydrated" ini.  Semoga hari Jumaat ini menjadi hari yang produktif bagi kita semua.

Jar of Hearts

I love this song, first for its title, second for it's melody. Just wanna share it with whoever reads my blog.  Siapa2 yang terasa lagu ni kena sangat ngan pengalaman dirinya, silalah menghayati the lyrics. As for me, I just like the melody. Do enjoy this! I'm sharing the clip which lets you sing-along.

Jar of Hearts

Revival

Hello again everyone.  I feel like it has been too long I've abandoned this blog of mine.  Knowing that my aunt has started her own blog, I am pulled towards reviving my own.  So, here goes... from today onwards, I will try to spend time uploading entries to this so-called brand new blog of mine.  

I want to share my daily experiences with my friends...(ada ke kawan2?), and by writing in here I can probably dispose some burden off my chest...and that, I will do.  

Jaundice...go away from my nephew!

Today I woke up early as usual but headed straight to shower.  I did not brew Bill's hot drink as I usually do.  I wanted to be at Putra Avenue early.  Using the Sg Buloh road, it took me about 45 minutes to reach there.  There I was, and there's my tiny tot, Luqman sleeping on his Mak Tok's large bed.  I woke him up with kisses, but didn't seem to yield to my disturbing him. I gazed at him...such a beautiful baby.  I'm love-strucked by this little one.

Mak Tok woke him up and bathed him.  My...he's such a strong little boy, when my mom put him in his long-bath, he was standing on his feet and walking!  We just giggled looking at his scene.  The reason I am here, at Putra Avenue is that I have to drive Mak and Luqman to Pusat Kesihatan (Poliklinik Kerajaan) in Puchong.  Owh gosh...there were a POOL of people from all ages there.  I started to have this headache having so many people around me and with that noise everywhere. I held Luqman in my arms while waiting for his turn to take some blood sample to be tested to determine the jaundice level.  They took his blood from his foot, Mak said.  I couldn't bear looking at that being done to him, so I let Mak carry him inside.  Later when that was done, I took the blood drawn from his tiny foot to the lab and waited for the result.  It has gone down from 14.9mg to 14.2 but I wasn't satisfied.  Then we waited for his turn to be consulted by the doctor.  I held him again...Luqman is such a good boy, he just slept from the moment he was brought inside the car until his blood sample was drawn and till we brought him to the doctor.  But he was perspiring, I think his head felt a bit warm.  Temperature, I suppose? I remember to ask the doctor to check on his temperature. Just a little bit more than the usual, but doctor said he's okay.

Sitting at the Government Polyclinic, holding my little nephew in my arms, I feel "sympathy" for him.  Why does he have to be in the middle of the noisy crowd to have his blood drawn for analysis, and then to wait to be consulted by a doctor.  Sweat trickling down his head and neck...ishhh...but he was such a good boy! He didn't throw tantrums at the clinic.

Home, after almost 2 hours, I laid on the bed with him next to me, staring at his adorable face, eyelids still glued.  Silently I thought...how could I not love this baby lying next to me?  Hahaha...gosh...so this is how it feels to have a baby eh?  Learned a few things today, and I now understand even better on a mother-baby bond.

Luqman, Mama Long pray for you to get well pronto.  Then we'll play again...get well little one! I love you SOOOO much!!  See you again this weekend.

Keep Walking My Days

My baby nephew is 3days new by today.  His daddy has not decided yet on how long his baby's name will be.  I am so mesmerized these few days, despite some disturbing thoughts.  I managed to push away those negative thoughts.  I didn't want the joy to be jeopardized by unwanted things.

My daily routine is rather deflected these few days.  I have been following my parents to the hospital for a couple of days already.  An enormous time is spent on the road, and lethargy sips into our bodies.  I know Ayah & Mak are very tired going here and there these few days, but as parents and now grandparents; they'll do anything.  Understood.  I feel the same way actually.

I snapped some photos of my nephew but I like this one very much, coz I am in red and I look so big and he's so little! Hehehe....

Kenangan2 dengan Luqman - 1 day old.

I also love some photos of my parents taken with Baby Luqman...they look so joyful and enthusiastic.  Ye la kan... happy sebab dapat cucu sulung.

He's just soooo adorable! Aduhai...I think I can melt if he can talk and ask me for anything.  Nasib baik la he's so infant and can't do all that just yet.

I feel so happy for everyone, especially Mak & Ayah.  I can feel the "happy aura" they're carrying along with them these few days.  Luqman has yet to meet his Papa Boy and Uncle Bill, and yet to meet all his uncles and aunties and grandparents from his mummy's side of the family.  Soon, Insya'Allah.

Looking at my parents, I am just happy that they're happy.  I can't give them a grandchild...but it's okay...now they have one from my brother...and another one on the way later at year end.  For as long as they're happy, that's the most important thing for me.  As for myself, I'll be that proud Mama Long of the eldest nephew.  Soon, there will be another one.  In the years to come... more in number.  I am contented.  No more questions...what I feel is my right to feel.  No one is to question how I really feel. All I can say now is that I AM HAPPY with the way things are.  As is. Period.  *smile*

Finally...! I got a NEPHEW and I am now a MAMA LONG :-)

It was a long wait.  I am officially an aunty to my first-born nephew. YES!!!!  Mama Long, okay? Today, at 10.46pm, my first sister-in-law gave birth to a baby boy.  He's my parents first grandchild, my first nephew, my brother's first-born.  I got over-excited this morning when my mom called to inform me that my sister-in-law has been admitted to the hospital.  Wow, the day finally arrived when I will hear the cries of a baby in our family, after Bill's, 26 years ago.  Wow... I said to myself, I am a Mama Long...but not just yet, wait till he makes his grand entrance, then it'll be official.  Paid a visit to Noreen in the afternoon, but she hasn't got contractions yet.  She wasn't even admitted to the ward yet.  Mak, Ayah and myself made our way to many places after the short visit, hoping that she'd be giving birth real soon.  But NOOOO..... he just didn't wanna come out yet!  Lama nya???  Baby's daddy, my dear brother is keeping us updated with the latest happenings.  I had to go man the gym this evening, so I just did what I had to do, and anxiously waiting for the call from Aman.  Abis gym, tak gak dapat phone call or message.  Bila laaa anak sedara aku nak kuar nih? Patience is killing me already, and instantly I am reminded of how much worse it would be for my sister-in-law.  FINALLY, at slightly past 11pm, Aman's mass message reached my BlackBerry, telling that the baby has been born.  Alhamdulillah...syukur.  My heart was jumping out of joy, I could feel my smile drawing across my cheek and my face blushing red out of happiness and relief that both mother and baby are fine.

Muhammad Noor Luqman Shah.  Yes, that's the name of the baby.  So LONG? Ni kalau isi borang, sure tak cukup ruang nak tulis namanya.  Apa2 lah Aman...as long as the baby is fine and so is your wife.  I wish I could see the baby right now, but I will just have to wait until tomorrow.  Baby dilahirkan malam...just like his daddy dulu.  So, as of now, there is no photo of the baby yet.  Will have to wait for tomorrow.... Can't wait.  Nevertheless, I still have to, anyway.

So...baby, I'll pay you a visit tomorrow.  Welcome to the world, baby.  We'll get to know each other soon.  Heartiest congratulations to my brother and his wife.  Syukur Alhamdulillah....

I can sleep in peace tonight.... (I wonder if I could sleep with the rate of joy I am feeling right now).

Weekend Again...

It's Saturday again. In a while I will be heading to Putra Avenue to help mak to cook soto ayam.  Sister-in-law craved for soto ayam with pegedil when I cooked meehoon soup last week.  She's so close to her due date, a couple of days to be exact. I am VERY excited. I"ll post some photos of our family gathering later.  Meanwhile, there are things to do and I don't know where to start.  Whatever it is I will have to wait for Bill to leave for office and then start my chores.  It's becoming a mundane thing for me already....but at least I am enjoying it.

I miss my Kemek....hmmm...takpe takpe, kakak datang jap lagi eh Kemek?

A Great Sunday

Ouch...my heels really need a good massage. Last night I was home alone, so I had time to plan my day today.  I started my day with cleaning the apartment, a daily routine. Then I started making the almond chocolate chip cookies as per requested by my 2nd sister-in-law.  Oh yeah, this year I'm selling my chocolate chip cookies.  I make the cookies, she sells them.

The toasted almond chocolate chip cookies

Yesterday before returning to Kasturi Idaman, I invited my whole family to have tea at my place.  I said I'd cook meehoon sup and bake a cake. Bought the items needed to bake the cake, and as for the meehoon soup, mom said she'll bring the stuff to the apartment. Thinking they'd reach here for hi-tea, I baked a cake.  I wanted to bake a vanilla-chocolate horizontal layer cake, but I forgot I'm supposed to bake it layer by layer.  So instead of having that so-called layer cake, it turned out to be a marbled cake.  Nasib baik sedap.  Hehehe...phew...and it's soft too, despite the crack in the center and the crust by the sides which I purposefully let them set in.  I know mom likes the crispy cake crust, so I baked the cake longer than I should.

My marble cake...see that dark chocolate outlining the brown
part of the cake?I dusted cocoa powder on top of each layer
and it created an outline for the marble. Quite nice, actually.
 It tastes good too, because I used Hershey's cocoa powder.
I would strongly suggest Hershey's cocoa powder for baking
or drinking (hot chocolate).

I cleaned up the kitchen after finishing my baking session, and headed for shower quickly so that I could rest before the whole family arrive.  I waited for a couple of hours, they still have not reached here...so I called mom... masya'Allah... semua syok tido lak petang tadi rupa2nya.  I gak yang tak tido2 walau pun mengantok!  Eventually they arrived at about 6 pm. I started cooking my noodle soup while my sisters-in-law packed the cookies samples.

After maghrib we had our dinner.  Wahhh....betul2 punya makan kami semua.  Semua bertambah2 sampai 2-3 kali.  I am honored for the first time we had the family get-together at my place. Alhamdulillah...meehoon sup yang I masak punya banyak tu tak la berbaki banyak sangat.  My mom tapau for our maid yang tinggal di rumah. 

Today's dinner menu - meehoon soup.  Ini gambar dari
my sister-in-law's bowl.  Hihihi...

Semua makan dengan berselera...almaklum lah... bukan mudah nak dapat berkumpul satu family begini.  Next time berkumpul, entah2 dah bertambah seorang lagi ahli keluarga kami.  My first sister-in-law is due REAL soon.  I am sooo excited!  Ni cuba tengok gambar2 yang I snapped...semua asyik mengadap makanan...

Both my preggy sisters-in-law.  Sweet moms-to-be  :-)

My youngest brother, Bill...always smiling...

My 2nd brother & wife

Sup, cili kicap, ayam carik.... macam meehoon soto pula...
sayangnya takde pegedil.  Yang takde dalam gambar,
daun sup, daun bawang, daun ketumbar, bawang goreng.
 Lapar balik bila mengingatkan makanan2 tadi....

My 1st brother & wife

Adikku Bill yang sedang asyik mahsyuk makan

My beloved parents...

We had a great family moment.  I am so tired after a very long day of baking and cooking....but I am VERY happy.  My Sunday this week ended quite well and I shall remember this day as one of my best ever.  Tomorrow a new week starts, and I am starting mine with the extraction of my 2nd wisdom tooth. But what the heck, I don't wanna spoil my day, I'll just think about the horror of extracting my tooth as I go through it tomorrow.  Have a great new week, everybody!

My not so good day

I woke up this morning with a backache and headache and the chest pain followed suit.  Apa hal laaa dengan aku hari ni? Macam2 sakit la pulak...beralih2 lak tu.  After brewing Bill's hot chocolate, I laid on the sofa and watched TV...and I dozed off, waking up to only find that it is already noon.  Such a deep sleep, aku rasa kalau bunyi drilling or orang pecah tembok baru tersedar kot. Hilang kisah nak menonton TV.  Terlepas lagi favorite series aku. Sigh....

Lapar perut...I wanted to cook, but laziness overruled me. I ended up buying lunch.  Just as I parked my car, it rained in buckets.  Nasib baik before going out tadi I closed all windows. I ate the food I bought - nasi putih dengan lauk asam pedas ikan pari and sayur bendi goreng.  Erghh....sayur bendi separuh daripadanya dah kerasa macam kayu. Eating all alone, in front of the TV, with the sound of rain outside... PATHETIC tul aku rasa. Macam hidup sebatang kara pulak...dulu waktu belajar, lalui juga saat2 macam ni, tapi takde la rasa as lonely as this afternoon.

As I  was finishing my lunch, the rain subsided. I continued doing my thing... which I don't know what the heck I did today, actually. And it rained again, cats and dogs.  I just showered again, for the 4th time today, then went online.  All the achings came back - chest pain gone (Alhamdulillah, for once I thought it was a cardiac pain!), the migraine came, and the acute pain on my left leg bit again. I sat silently on my bed, facing the window, looking out at the heavy rain. I snapped a few photos of the rain...

View on the left side of my room's window

View of the right hand side from my room's window

Looking at the rain made my heart cries... here I am, all alone, and having my body aching all over.  What a great day huh?  At a time like this, when I feel sick, I just want to be alone...but I want my loved ones to simply ask, "are you okay?" but that didn't happen.  I just feel this pain of boredom and loneliness right there at one point in my heart.  I told myself to just let it go...I don't have to feel this way.  But sadly, I am.

I dived on my bed again, trying to Facebook but I ended up dozing off again.  Don't know what the hell is wrong with myself today....  I woke up later in the afternoon and right away headed to the gym.  I forced myself to exercise despite the aching legs.  The workout helped to ease the tension a little.  I am trying to sustain the less-stressed state of being till I reached home again.  My migraine revisited. Darn...!  Aku malas nak melayan semua ni, harap2 tertido balik sebentar lagi.  Dalam hati ni kata, "NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME!"

I just don't know what is wrong with me today! Maybe nobody cares, anyway...Oh, my dear eyes.... please get heavy on the lids and fall asleep again.  I don't want to succumb to this emotions.

Penat tapi Happy

I'm kind of tired, actually. As early as 8 am today, I started my household chores. I vacuumed and mopped the whole apartment. I want to keep our crib spick and span. Semalam my room's wall lamp kaputt sebelah. Aku memanjat nak menukar bulb nya. Ya Allah...tingginya electrician pasang wall light akuuuuu.  Gayat aku memanjat tangga nak menukar bulb.  Dah la bulb tu halus...ish ish... nak mengharapkan Bill tukarkan? Entah hari bila la yang dia boleh tolong.  Aku gak kena panjat tangga tu sendiri...menggigil lutut. :-)  Itu cerita semalam. Hari ni  aku bangun awal pagi dan pasang lampu tu, yang sebelah pulak blow. Arrrghhh!!!! Kena panjat lagi?? Dengan menggigil aku panjat gak la juga.  Keeping the apartment clean isn't an easy job, and since I took the full responsibility of the apartment, I have to do everything on my own. I'm not complaining, just expressing how much I understand even more since I live here with Bill.  This is the best part, although I have to manage the apartment on my own, I get to do it at my convenient time. No one to nag or push me, I just have to know when I should carry out the chores. Some call me lady of leisure...but they don't know what I do the whole day. If I were to tell anyone, they'd say I lead a leisure life.  Well, maybe they're right, considering I don't have to adhere to the office hours...but being a "house"lady, there are so much things to do.  Be one and you'll know what I mean...unless you're the kind who doesn't do household chores. :-)

I spent two hours cleaning, half and hour cooking lunch for myself, half and hour doing the laundry and hanging them, I did that while watching the TV...and later in the afternoon I baked a cake. I felt tired, but feeling content. I did everything at my own will, so I enjoyed every single chore. I love my life!

Love...Love...? Love...!

To love...

Is when you care 'bout someone

Think of him every now and then

Wondering if he's thinking of you too

His voice, an elixir to perish all your pain

To be loved...

Feeling uplifted when he shows care and concern

Knowing he's there for you most of the time

To give you the strength you really need

And make you walk your day in a breeze

To be in love...

Is when you crave for his presence 

Exuberance seeping into your soul

Just feel your love for him

He feels it too...

Love is in the air

Breathe your love...

Feel your love...

Touch your love...

Love your love.

Old Friend's Visit

Last Friday, July 1st 2011, my old friend whom I've already accepted as a sister, paid me a visit at Kasturi Idaman.  We finally set a date to meet and she made her way to Kelana Jaya LRT station and I fetched her there.  She came with her son, Syamil...and a glimpse on her son's face, reminds me of how old I am now.  They entered  the car and greeted me.  I asked my sister how old Syamil is. Five years old? That's about how long we haven't met each other.  The baby boy I saw five years ago is now a toddler.  He talks a lot too!  Hehehe...

We tried to catch up with what has been lost over the five years, but time is never enough, I guess.  I cooked lunch and we ate together.  It was fun to see Syamil ate his lunch. He's a boy, and we haven't had children in the house for 20 over years. Naughtiness of a toddler his age isn't something familiar to me anymore.  But hey, I'm going to be an aunty to two nephews this year. OMG! Guess I have to get used to kids ey? I just can't imagine how it's going to be like when my nephews are born...what kind of aunty am I going to be?

Anyway, the time my pet sister and I had to catch up with each other was just not enough.  It was already time for me to send them back to the train station.  I hope we could meet up again and hobnob.  It's really good to meet again...her little boy is cute! Hehehe....and I like him actually, although "Mak Long" (ntah camner dia panggil Mak Long lak, supposed to be Mama Long) is kind of "garang" towards little Syamil.  To my pet sister, jangan ambil hati yer...I love your son.

May we meet again when we have the chance.  Syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah made our paths cross again.

Another New Week

There's so much to share, I just haven't got the time to do so...or rather...lazy to write? I breezed thru last week successfully...it was a quick one.  These days, time flies past unnoticeably superfast!  I failed to write as I used to, and it's a heartbreak for me.  I keep asking myself, why I can't write anymore.  Each time I started a few words, I either got bored or doze off.  By the way, last week was such a sleepy week.  I laughed at a gym friend who told me that last 2 weeks she was always sleepy, I think I've contracted it now.

Today, in a while I'm heading to my parents' again.  Mom and I are going to do groceries together.  I love shopping for groceries but I hate carrying those heavy plastic bags, considering I'm now living in an apartment and not a landed house.  In a way, I miss living with my parents although I like living on my own.

I was really tired towards the end of last week. With so much things at hand, I could barely open my eyes even at early night, and my body felt like a wreck. Anyway, despite the lethargy, I was happy to have spent the weekend with my family and the week ended nicely with a call to my dearest one. So, all in all, I had a great week.  Today is the beginning of a new week, and I hope it'll end well too.  Insya'Allah...

Time moves almost as fast as the light.

Oh well, in a split second, beyond realization, the elysium moment of mine has gone past.  A week has passed.  Things resume to normal routine and at the usual pace. The meet, the moment together was a glimpse.  I wish I could turn back time so that I could recur the experience.  Why does time run too fast? I am looking forward to the next break in 3 months' time.  Until then I shall hold on to the most recent memory. :-)

I Love You

The long awaited moment has come. My love is back for a short break from work. God I miss him SO much. Not that he has been gone for too long, but I miss him too much! Before he left Malaysia, we only met for a hobnob for about an hour. He is always in a rush. I'm definitely not enough with the quantity of time spent with him, but I know I have to make do what we have.  I love him, and if I have to sacrifice this feeling of mine and push away my selfishness to keep my sanity, I am willing.  As long as each of us is happy then everything will be fine. This time around, he hasn't much time to spend with me either and I must accept it although with such hesitance. The most important thing, he made the time to spend the quality time with me.  What more could I ask for? Alhamdulillah that he loves me and keeps to his words. I am more than grateful.  I love you, darling...I really love you.

Kepenatan yang melampau

Ya Allah penatnya aku hari ni...I had a terrible migraine yesterday. I thought I had enough sleep but I was wrong. Today was a disaster for my body. I still have the migraine, I feel sleepy, I had muscle pains. I thought malas nak exercise hari ni....tapi bagus gak Emy offered me the machine right after she was done.  Tergerak hati nak kayuh machine tu...dapat gak burn out some calories. Alhamdulillah. Hilang seketika sakit bahu, tapi datang lak balik sekarang ni selepas dok berkemas dan bersengkang mata sehingga sekarang ni.  Mata aku ni jadi payah nak tido sebab tadi sambil aku berkemas, chat la ngan seorang kawan lama... and aku cukup benci bila orang nak chat ngan aku, tapi menyakitkan hati aku dengan statements bodoh yg ditaip tanpa berfikir. What kind of a friend is one who purposely provokes me when he/she knows it's a provocation and it ticks me off?

Aku mengantuk....mengantukkk...tapi mata ni payahnya nak lelap...I hope I'll doze off after I finish writing this entry.  I really need the rest. Darn...

May tomorrow be a better day for me. Insya'Allah...

Bonkers!

I hate it when my creativity fails me.  I can't think, I can't write, I can't even say a word that makes perfect sense to me, what more others.  I hate it when I'm blank.  I hate it when I can't express my heartfelt, my thoughts in words/ in writing. I HATE the state of my being right now.

Kasturi Idaman

It's Bill's and my new home.  I have been longing to live on my own, to choose and decorate my own home.  After a couple of decades, finally that wish came true.  Thank you endlessly to my dad and my mom for realizing the dream for me.  The one thing that comes along with the wish is that I don't actually live alone, but my youngest brother will be my companion.  I can live with that, it's not a problem at all.  In fact, it's a blessing.  He is the only who can withstand the fussy me.  Being the "perfectionist" it's not easy to tolerate me.  I know that, don't think I don't :-)  But I am so blessed to be given a brother who could tolerate all my antiques although he can't really take it all but at least he doesn't make a noise out of my fussiness, or at least not in front of me.  And I know however difficult I am as person towards others, especially my brothers, Bill loves me very much and I think he knows too that I love him so very dearly.  


It took patience to finally settle down in this cute apartment of ours...and obviously expenses coming out of my dad's pocket.  I can never thank my dad enough for every single time and money he spent, and of course mom too, to fulfill my brother's and my wish to own a property which we physically live in.  


Bill and I are very choosy in furnishing this little crib.  We share ideas in decorating it and we are contented with what we have now.  Alhamdulillah...


So this is where we live now...Kasturi Idaman, our present home sweet home.

Agong's Birthday

Happy Birthday to our King...it's important for me as a holiday so that I could spend my hours with my family members, now that we're living separately from mom and dad.

It was quite a busy day for Bill and me.  My day started very early and with the new extra household chores, I got my hands full already.  Late morning we left for Putra Avenue, heeding the plan dad made which is to send off Boy and his wife to KLIA.  They're going for the long overdue honeymoon, carrying along the lil one with them.

As we reached Putra Avenue, the first thing I did was to look for Kemek, my naughty cat. I missed her sooooo much! Huwwwaaaaa.... instead of giving me a kiss, she scratched me. Cacat lagik tangan aku nih!

Done with sending off Boy and Farrah, we did some shopping and then headed home. Being away from my mom makes me feel that her cooking is even more delicious than ever!  God, I love mom's cooking even more!  Not too long after that Bill and I left for our own crib.

As of right now, I am in my room feeling tired after quite a long day doing errr... I don't really know what, but what I do know is that I had spent quality time with my family members.  THAT matters most.  So I would rate today VERY PRODUCTIVE.

A New Chapter in Life

June 1st, 2011

I lagged in the timestamp. Was supposed to start my entries on June 1st, 2011 but business witheld me from materializing my effort in starting this new blog.  June 1st, 2011 marked the new beginning of my life.  New crib, new ambience, new routine minus the old me & the old red baby I love most.  Officially, Bill and I moved in on June 1st...unofficially, May 31st.  With this new change, along comes the extra responsibilities on my shoulders to carry. The two of us winged away from the the core, our parents.  It's rather exciting, at the same time tingles my thoughts and physique.  Larger responsibilities... from merely a big-sister to mom-like figure here in Kasturi Idaman.  I am closer to the gym, I get more privacy - my own space, my own kitchen; all the that for the price of BIGGER RESPONSIBILITIES.  I had waited two decades to live on my own and finally my wish was granted with a little twist to the original plan. I carry an excess baggage - my little brother who isn't so little anymore, not that I'm using the word "excess baggage" referring to him as a burden, but just to spice up my story a bit here and there. Well, he is after all the ONLY one person who can stand living with me, the so-called "perfectionist" sister.  I don't mind at all, in fact I feel so blessed. We're supposed to take care of each other, but I think I'll always be the "kakak" and he's always the "adik".  

So, the new chapter in both Bill's and my life begins here in Kasturi Idaman. A new leaf for both of us. May Allah bless us always.

A Brand New Blog

Oh yes, a brand new one.  I just wanted to start afresh.  The old blog is still active but I decided to halt writing there and opened a new one since I'm starting a fresh life here in Kasturi Idaman.  Well, maybe it isn't totally a brand new life, but almost everything is brand new...hence the new blog. I hope to be able to share more here.