Time moves almost as fast as the light.

Oh well, in a split second, beyond realization, the elysium moment of mine has gone past.  A week has passed.  Things resume to normal routine and at the usual pace. The meet, the moment together was a glimpse.  I wish I could turn back time so that I could recur the experience.  Why does time run too fast? I am looking forward to the next break in 3 months' time.  Until then I shall hold on to the most recent memory. :-)

I Love You

The long awaited moment has come. My love is back for a short break from work. God I miss him SO much. Not that he has been gone for too long, but I miss him too much! Before he left Malaysia, we only met for a hobnob for about an hour. He is always in a rush. I'm definitely not enough with the quantity of time spent with him, but I know I have to make do what we have.  I love him, and if I have to sacrifice this feeling of mine and push away my selfishness to keep my sanity, I am willing.  As long as each of us is happy then everything will be fine. This time around, he hasn't much time to spend with me either and I must accept it although with such hesitance. The most important thing, he made the time to spend the quality time with me.  What more could I ask for? Alhamdulillah that he loves me and keeps to his words. I am more than grateful.  I love you, darling...I really love you.

Kepenatan yang melampau

Ya Allah penatnya aku hari ni...I had a terrible migraine yesterday. I thought I had enough sleep but I was wrong. Today was a disaster for my body. I still have the migraine, I feel sleepy, I had muscle pains. I thought malas nak exercise hari ni....tapi bagus gak Emy offered me the machine right after she was done.  Tergerak hati nak kayuh machine tu...dapat gak burn out some calories. Alhamdulillah. Hilang seketika sakit bahu, tapi datang lak balik sekarang ni selepas dok berkemas dan bersengkang mata sehingga sekarang ni.  Mata aku ni jadi payah nak tido sebab tadi sambil aku berkemas, chat la ngan seorang kawan lama... and aku cukup benci bila orang nak chat ngan aku, tapi menyakitkan hati aku dengan statements bodoh yg ditaip tanpa berfikir. What kind of a friend is one who purposely provokes me when he/she knows it's a provocation and it ticks me off?

Aku mengantuk....mengantukkk...tapi mata ni payahnya nak lelap...I hope I'll doze off after I finish writing this entry.  I really need the rest. Darn...

May tomorrow be a better day for me. Insya'Allah...

Bonkers!

I hate it when my creativity fails me.  I can't think, I can't write, I can't even say a word that makes perfect sense to me, what more others.  I hate it when I'm blank.  I hate it when I can't express my heartfelt, my thoughts in words/ in writing. I HATE the state of my being right now.

Kasturi Idaman

It's Bill's and my new home.  I have been longing to live on my own, to choose and decorate my own home.  After a couple of decades, finally that wish came true.  Thank you endlessly to my dad and my mom for realizing the dream for me.  The one thing that comes along with the wish is that I don't actually live alone, but my youngest brother will be my companion.  I can live with that, it's not a problem at all.  In fact, it's a blessing.  He is the only who can withstand the fussy me.  Being the "perfectionist" it's not easy to tolerate me.  I know that, don't think I don't :-)  But I am so blessed to be given a brother who could tolerate all my antiques although he can't really take it all but at least he doesn't make a noise out of my fussiness, or at least not in front of me.  And I know however difficult I am as person towards others, especially my brothers, Bill loves me very much and I think he knows too that I love him so very dearly.  


It took patience to finally settle down in this cute apartment of ours...and obviously expenses coming out of my dad's pocket.  I can never thank my dad enough for every single time and money he spent, and of course mom too, to fulfill my brother's and my wish to own a property which we physically live in.  


Bill and I are very choosy in furnishing this little crib.  We share ideas in decorating it and we are contented with what we have now.  Alhamdulillah...


So this is where we live now...Kasturi Idaman, our present home sweet home.

Agong's Birthday

Happy Birthday to our King...it's important for me as a holiday so that I could spend my hours with my family members, now that we're living separately from mom and dad.

It was quite a busy day for Bill and me.  My day started very early and with the new extra household chores, I got my hands full already.  Late morning we left for Putra Avenue, heeding the plan dad made which is to send off Boy and his wife to KLIA.  They're going for the long overdue honeymoon, carrying along the lil one with them.

As we reached Putra Avenue, the first thing I did was to look for Kemek, my naughty cat. I missed her sooooo much! Huwwwaaaaa.... instead of giving me a kiss, she scratched me. Cacat lagik tangan aku nih!

Done with sending off Boy and Farrah, we did some shopping and then headed home. Being away from my mom makes me feel that her cooking is even more delicious than ever!  God, I love mom's cooking even more!  Not too long after that Bill and I left for our own crib.

As of right now, I am in my room feeling tired after quite a long day doing errr... I don't really know what, but what I do know is that I had spent quality time with my family members.  THAT matters most.  So I would rate today VERY PRODUCTIVE.

A New Chapter in Life

June 1st, 2011

I lagged in the timestamp. Was supposed to start my entries on June 1st, 2011 but business witheld me from materializing my effort in starting this new blog.  June 1st, 2011 marked the new beginning of my life.  New crib, new ambience, new routine minus the old me & the old red baby I love most.  Officially, Bill and I moved in on June 1st...unofficially, May 31st.  With this new change, along comes the extra responsibilities on my shoulders to carry. The two of us winged away from the the core, our parents.  It's rather exciting, at the same time tingles my thoughts and physique.  Larger responsibilities... from merely a big-sister to mom-like figure here in Kasturi Idaman.  I am closer to the gym, I get more privacy - my own space, my own kitchen; all the that for the price of BIGGER RESPONSIBILITIES.  I had waited two decades to live on my own and finally my wish was granted with a little twist to the original plan. I carry an excess baggage - my little brother who isn't so little anymore, not that I'm using the word "excess baggage" referring to him as a burden, but just to spice up my story a bit here and there. Well, he is after all the ONLY one person who can stand living with me, the so-called "perfectionist" sister.  I don't mind at all, in fact I feel so blessed. We're supposed to take care of each other, but I think I'll always be the "kakak" and he's always the "adik".  

So, the new chapter in both Bill's and my life begins here in Kasturi Idaman. A new leaf for both of us. May Allah bless us always.

A Brand New Blog

Oh yes, a brand new one.  I just wanted to start afresh.  The old blog is still active but I decided to halt writing there and opened a new one since I'm starting a fresh life here in Kasturi Idaman.  Well, maybe it isn't totally a brand new life, but almost everything is brand new...hence the new blog. I hope to be able to share more here.